Matt

I have two older brothers. Most people do not know that I have 2 because I don't ever talk about my oldest brother because it kills me to talk about him. Every time I think about him tears come to my eyes so it is hard to find someone to talk to because I hate crying in front of people. My brother Matt is 27 years old. He has been locked up in prison for the past 8 years and before that in and out of rehab and juvi since he was thirteen. This means that I honestly have no idea who my brother is. I only remember the fights he caused in my house when I was growing up. He gets out 74 days, which means January 12th. I am scared to death to see my brother. I know he will be living at home because my mom would do anything in the world for him but he just doesn't get it. He doesn't understand what it is like to live in this world. I have talked to him once in 3 years and before that it was 5 years. The only way I know how to explain the feeling I have is that I am afraid, so scared.