My life

My life has not been picture perfect or anywhere near that. I am the first child to go to college and I am so blessed and thankful to be here. My father finished high school and that was it. My mom finished high school then went to kirkwood for two years and that was it. My brother Matt dropped out of high school but ended up getting his GED. My brother Dustin graduated high school 3 hours before comencement. My family is not big on education. So they were not helpful on the college hunt. But I want to be a teacher, I want to make learning enjoyable for students, so I had my teacher help me. My parents are being as helpful as they can on paying for my education as I could not get a loan but they can only do so much. I went through hell while growing up there was constant fighting and cops at my house. But I love my family and we are closer now than we ever have been.

Matt

I have two older brothers. Most people do not know that I have 2 because I don't ever talk about my oldest brother because it kills me to talk about him. Every time I think about him tears come to my eyes so it is hard to find someone to talk to because I hate crying in front of people. My brother Matt is 27 years old. He has been locked up in prison for the past 8 years and before that in and out of rehab and juvi since he was thirteen. This means that I honestly have no idea who my brother is. I only remember the fights he caused in my house when I was growing up. He gets out 74 days, which means January 12th. I am scared to death to see my brother. I know he will be living at home because my mom would do anything in the world for him but he just doesn't get it. He doesn't understand what it is like to live in this world. I have talked to him once in 3 years and before that it was 5 years. The only way I know how to explain the feeling I have is that I am afraid, so scared.

Study Abroad and Wartburg West

I went to the meetings study abroad and Wartburg West yesterday. I felt that they were not very informative and it was a very broad overview. I really want to study abroad in Barcelona, Spain either next year or my 3rd year. I am going to Costa Rica this May term and I am so excited. If I continue with teaching I think it would be awesome to do my student teaching at Wartburg West my final year. I cannot wait to see what the future has in store for me.

Outfly

Hmmm so apparently Outfly is this huge ordeal. Well all I see is that it drives the students crazy! I am not too worried about when it will be but I just want it to be over with. Seriously, it is the ONLY I have heard people talk about on campus for the last month! It is crazy. I am sure it is and will be a lot of fun but I have no idea what the big hype is because I have not experienced it yet. Well with that being said hopefully Outfly is tomorrow so I can have a 4 day weekend! :)

EXCITED

Today I found out that baby Jax was finally released from the hospital. He is so strong and healthy now! :) I cannot wait to go home this weekend and spend time with the new babies Jax and Allison as well as my friends and family. I am carving pumpkins with my boyfriend's family, well I don't actually know if I will carve it because I find the seeds very disgusting, so maybe I will just paint mine. I am very excited to get to have home cooked meals, that is one thing I am definitely missing from home. I am also babysitting when I come home this weekend which is very exciting because I absolutely love everything about the kids I babysit! I cannot wait until Friday! :)

Roomate

My roommate and I have had our ups and downs. We get along really well but on some days I just get very frustrated. This whole sharing a tiny room with someone else is very difficult!! This last week we have gotten along a lot more than we did in the beginning which is awesome. She is now keeping her side of the room clean and it is nice to have someone just to chat with about how my day is going. We are both done with our fall season of sports so we will be spending more time together I am sure and that could be good or bad, I am not quite sure yet. I really hope we continue to get along and do not have any conflicts.

ED100

I am in foundations of american education and on Friday we took the hardest test! The test consisted of three parts; 5 court cases, two paragraphs, and multiple choice, short answer, true/false. The five court cases were not bad at all because I studied very hard for that part. The two paragraphs were not bad either because I had options to choose from. The part that was very hard was the multiple choice, short answer and the true/false, this part was even open book, which the others were not. I only left four questions blank but guessed on many. I am very glad that it was an open book test for that part because otherwise I would have only been able to answer maybe ten questions! I have learned for the future I will still have to actually study even for an open book test.

Another New Baby!

Molly is a lady that I babysit for frequently when I go back home. She has 2 kids, Jackson who is 4 and  Kaitlyn who is 2. They have recently had a new addition to their family, Allison Marie. Allison was born on Tuesday night at 9:19pm. I am so excited to have two new babies around when I go back home. I cannot wait to babysit baby Allison:)
Also my nephew Jax is doing much better and can now eat and breathe completely on his own. Today after class I get to go to the hospital and hold him for the first time. I am overly excited about this and my attention span is little to none today!!!

On Monday morning at 5:58am I became and aunt to 6lbs 5oz baby Jax Lee. Jax was born 4 weeks and 4 days early. He is a very healthy baby boy and can breathe on his own but he is not quite strong enough to take full deep breaths on his own. He is currently on oxygen and no one has been allowed to hold him, not even his mom or dad and I find that very sad. I cannot wait until he is strong enough so that we are allowed to hold him and hopefully he can be released within this week. This was a very exciting day for me because I love babies. I cannot wait to spoil him!